...WHY ME?!?!

For it is written:

“I will destroy the wisdom of the wise;

the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate.”

‘Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe. Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom...but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. For the foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: “Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.” ~ 1 Cor 1: 19-31

From the time I was young, I have felt the hand of the Lord on my life. Although I wasn’t raised around Christians, God always seemed to send Godly people along my path.  I felt that His hands were always there, leading and guiding me, even when I didn’t want to be led or guided...even through my teen rebellious years.  At age 18, I was basically homeless and pregnant, with a one year old, and went to live with a white family, who taught me about the Lord, and showed me love. It was my own personal ‘Different Strokes’ story. These people initially were strange to me- they sang, talked, walked and lived for Jesus. I had never seen or experienced anything like them. Their love enveloped me, and they totally accepted me, regardless of what I did. They patiently answered my many questions about God and His ways, and  for 6 months they were there...all the way through the birth of my daughter, to my wedding day. And I knew the entire time that God had orchestrated the whole thing. And still I asked...Why me?

Funny, I don’t have specialized degrees...am not particularly talented, or extremely overly-intelligent. But for some reason, the wisdom that comes from me, seems to impress people. I always only wanted to be a wife and mother for as long as I could remember, but God has taken and made me a speaker, teacher, and mentor. I never asked for any of it, but He continues to push me towards these things.  Me...a simple girl born in Bellflower, California., seems to be somehow destined to change lives!  Throughout childhood, Junior High and High School I never fully fit in. I used to watch the other kids, and teens, and wonder why I couldn’t relate. As a kid, I felt like a grown up already.  I tried to assimilate, tried to pretend to be like everyone else, laugh and play silly games, imitate the way others talked, walked, laughed...but all the time I felt as if any moment I would be exposed as a fraud.  I remember at one time being shocked to discover that I was human. I even saw that I wrote it in my journal at 14. I was amazed. That I would grow up, grow old...die. That was a revelation to me. Being around other people socially never really felt comfortable, either, Unless they were close friends, and loved ones...which growing up was very few. To this day, the only time I feel truly comfortable and in my element is when I am speaking, teaching, and guiding another person. It’s like second nature to me. To take a concept, research, and teach/ explain it so that another person can easily understand it is heaven on earth to me...I literally get a high doing it.

To my relief, I discovered that throughout the Word, God consistently and purposely uses ‘peculiar’ people like me. Moses, Abraham, David, Joseph, Paul...Jesus. All were virtual outcasts, all were seemingly ill-equipped for the job that God called them for. None came from noble backgrounds, or held high social positions. All felt unworthy, and seemed thrust into leadership. Yes, many are called, but this is the way of the “Chosen’. I have learned lately to stop questioning the call of God on my life, and just embrace it.  There are gifts, talents and abilities that I have that no one else has in the particular way that I have them. There are people I can reach that no one can reach like I can reach them, and there is a story that only I can tell. Even my name is unique: Myckelle. I Googled it. No one else has that spelling. I am truly one of a kind.

So instead of saying ‘Why Me’?...I now Thank God that he sees fit to Chose me, and can finally say to myself ‘Why Not me?’ I don’t know why he chose me...but I’m honored to be His vessel. Wow...Used for a Mission by the All-Powerful creator of the Universe!  And I can only boast in the Lord as my true provider, source of strength, and wellspring of Wisdom...it’s none of me, and all of HIM. And remember, God is not a respector of persons. What He did for David, Joseph, Moses, and Me...he will do for YOU as well!!  ~Selah!

1 Peter 2:9 “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light”